For the past couple of nights I've had nightmares disrupt my sleep. One wasn't even a nightmare, it just had a terrifying moment where a large bee attacked my neck. Last night was horrible. I woke up from a very enjoyable dream to tinkling sounds. My music box had gone off. My music box that was on a very tall shelf on the other side of the room. I laid in bed until the sun came up. :(

my new kitty has decided to take a cat nap on my lap and my right hand. don't want to wake him. sitting on concrete. ass losing feeling. he's so cute. named him big tuna.

well not really but it feels that way. I think mostly because during fall all my friends are away at school and the crappy weather makes me stay in my room all day doing nothing. It's quite pathetic. It also seems the time where my unoccupied brain thinks up relationship problems that don't really exist. At least, I hope they don't. Funny websites and school work aren't enough of a distraction anymore.

Emma: I'm bad
Me: SUPERBAD!!
Me: hahaha I'm so fucking funny
Me: yeah, that's right
Me: I said it
Emma: I love you Thrista

Holy shit my french class is driving me insane. I managed to survive the two weeks of french 2 before bashing my head in from frustration, but I don't think I'll last another day of french 3. Oh, and I'm not frustrated by the material, just the students. I actually like the accelerated rate we're learning at, or supposed to be learning at, because I pick up quickly enough. Unfortunately the students in my class don't get that this is a condensed course, and the new teacher isn't very good at keeping the students in check. Half of the class interrupts lessons asking about grades and extra credit, even though we wen't over all that on the first day, a quarter of the class interrupt with pointless questions, and the last quarter don't even care so they end up interrupting by gossiping very loudly.
There are three people who standout that make my 6 hours of class a day excruciatingly painful. One is some old lady taking the class to get ready for some exchange student whose going to be staying with her. While that's very kind of her, she's the most annoying person I've ever met. She keeps asking questions that are somewhat connected to the lesson but will eventually come up in an hour or two so it's completely unnecessary to mention. Then while the teacher finds a way to stall or answer the question, the crazy old bag will flip through the book, find the answer herself, then interrupt the teacher's explanation by saying it herself. I think she does it to make her feel better about herself, like she doesn't need to take this class when she's one of the worst students in it. And now she's taken to asking her question very slowly, emphasizing every word, like the teacher can't understand what she's saying; it's really condescending.
The other student is some highschool chick from palo alto high taking the class for credit. Though I don't think she'll get any seeing as she's extremely lazy, yet disruptive at the same time. And she clings to students who know less than her so that she can feel smart. Today she brought over flash cards to one unfortunate student and was trying to 'teach' her when the real teacher came up and said she should be finishing her worksheet because she failed horribly on the test yesterday. But instead of going strait back to work she hung around the other student and wouldn't budge after 5 full minutes of the teacher insisting she get back to work.
The last one that stands out is insane. Though it's refreshing how excited she is by learning, she's a little bit too excited. Whenever I see her she has this crazed look in her eyes, and not to be shallow, but she also has a protruding forehead and sheekbones that would be cute, except when coupled with those crazy eyes and constant smile...well the overall effect is very unsettling. Also, given her outspoken enthusiasm in class, the material doesn't seem to stick very well and she makes mistakes, then corrects them aloud.
Well that's all for now. This class is making me such a bitch. I can't help it. Fortunately I've managed to keep from lashing out at the others by going back to my antisocial roots. Staying the in the way back with hood on and headphones in, keeping to myself. I've also taken to teaching myself from the book since the instructor is reteaching material because a majority of the class are almost too stupid to function.


End rant.

Stupid piece of shit night.

He was right. Triangle pencils are superior!

So my cousin got knocked up by her longtime boyfriend and had a civil wedding because she was getting too huge for a real ceremony. For the reception my parents are dragging me to the the groom's mom's house for lunch. This was supposed to happen at 2pm. I woke up extra early (not that big of a hassle) to get ready beforehand then hang out with Dan for the morning. When I get home at 1:30 my parents are still getting ready and tell me we have to wait for one of my aunts to get here before we can leave. I'm all for carpooling to save gas and take up less parking space but they are over an hour late. I'm bored, irritated, friend-deprived and hungry. Fuck family functions. :( I'm missing a Giants game for this shit. I love going to those games....

oh yeah, before I forget, a few minutes ago random parts of my body felt shooting pains. Tiny bursts of "holy shit what the hell?!" pain.

I think Dan hates me.

Sometimes I feel very unloved.